here is the deepest secret nobody knows

canyonbehindher @ 2005-01-20T19:13:00

2005-01-21T00:14:39Z

so... I decided to get a new username because I've had this one for over a year.

_whatallisnice

i've already added most of you.

add me back.

deedah laps made a "best of 2004" photo album

2005-01-20T22:52:28Z

The Best of 2004

This one's a repeat offender, I know, but COME ON. look at her face.

this is how i normally dress.

oh deedah, will you never learn.

bunnylove is MINE NOT YOURS and if you're not already jealous, you should be.

because she's way cooler than all of your friends.

me and bethany went for a romantic stroll in the rain. it was fabulous.

what the hell happened to these boys. Matt S(? that's what he's in my phone as... the one with the blanket on his head) was so flippin hot.

what the gay?

me and deedah are obv bff4L... we haven't had a night like that in a loooong time.

do it, fuckers

2005-01-20T01:40:51Z

1. recommend a book.
2. recommend a food.
3. have we met?
4. tell me something.

edit.

i think you should even do this if you're like, say, one of my buddies who isn't supposed to know about this journal, or a random person just stopping by. because that would be cool.

canyonbehindher @ 2005-01-18T21:14:00

2005-01-19T02:14:36Z

sometimes i look at myself and think, man, you're really fucking inadequate.

i said venice, you heard vegas.

2005-01-16T22:07:09Z

to apathy
may you never learn to care.
what kind of a life is this?
waking past noon to
a day too tired to live
a throat too sore to sing.
excitement, maybe, or anxiety
burning through arteries
cancelled out by that consistent aching
reminder
"you are second-best."
blank.

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and i ain't lookin to fight with you,
frighten you or uptighten you,
drag you down or drain you down,
chain you down or bring you down.
all i really want to do
is, baby, be friends with you.

there is a warhol-esque portrait of bob dylan at the coffee shop downtown and i really want that hanging in my room.

canyonbehindher @ 2005-01-13T23:17:00

2005-01-14T04:20:12Z

what dreams cause me
to abandon my pillow each night?
push away from them,in fact
since there always seem to be more than one
then wake up to aching stiff neck twisted
tits and face smashed against the mattress
legs and arms akimbo
like the high-pitched body of a jumper
waiting for her chalk outline
finally at rest.

canyonbehindher @ 2004-12-19T20:01:00

2004-12-20T01:02:12Z

lately, i feel really fucking bad about life in general.

canyonbehindher @ 2004-12-18T17:18:00

2004-12-18T22:19:21Z

i find that a taking twice the directed dosage of Sudafed cures sniffling almost instantly.

canyonbehindher @ 2004-11-16T14:23:00

2004-11-16T19:23:40Z

i fucking hate girls.

canyonbehindher @ 2004-11-06T14:53:00

2004-11-06T19:54:26Z

i sometimes forget ________.

curious.

2004-09-27T03:10:56Z

1. the one person you can count on in life is ____________.
2. your favorite song right now is _________.
3. tell me something. anything.

canyonbehindher @ 2004-04-10T12:38:00

2004-04-10T16:37:44Z