here is the deepest secret nobody knows

Thursday, January 20th, 2005

Time:

7:13 pm.

so... I decided to get a new username because I've had this one for over a year.

_whatallisnice

i've already added most of you.

add me back.

Comments: 1 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Subject:	deedah laps made a "best of 2004" photo album
Time:	5:37 pm.

( here are my favorites (plus one that makes me laugh): )

Comments: 4 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Wednesday, January 19th, 2005

Subject:	do it, fuckers
Time:	8:39 pm.

1. recommend a book.
2. recommend a food.
3. have we met?
4. tell me something.

edit.

i think you should even do this if you're like, say, one of my buddies who isn't supposed to know about this journal, or a random person just stopping by. because that would be cool.

Comments: 13 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Tuesday, January 18th, 2005

Time:

9:14 pm.

sometimes i look at myself and think, man, you're really fucking inadequate.

Comments: 2 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Sunday, January 16th, 2005

Subject:	i said venice, you heard vegas.
Time:	5:00 pm.

to apathy
may you never learn to care.
what kind of a life is this?
waking past noon to
a day too tired to live
a throat too sore to sing.
excitement, maybe, or anxiety
burning through arteries
cancelled out by that consistent aching
reminder
"you are second-best."
blank.

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and i ain't lookin to fight with you,
frighten you or uptighten you,
drag you down or drain you down,
chain you down or bring you down.
all i really want to do
is, baby, be friends with you.

there is a warhol-esque portrait of bob dylan at the coffee shop downtown and i really want that hanging in my room.

Comments: 1 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Thursday, January 13th, 2005

Time:

11:17 pm.

what dreams cause me
to abandon my pillow each night?
push away from them,in fact
since there always seem to be more than one
then wake up to aching stiff neck twisted
tits and face smashed against the mattress
legs and arms akimbo
like the high-pitched body of a jumper
waiting for her chalk outline
finally at rest.

Comments: 2 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Sunday, December 19th, 2004

Time:

8:01 pm.

lately, i feel really fucking bad about life in general.

Comments: 1 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Saturday, December 18th, 2004

Time:

5:18 pm.

i find that a taking twice the directed dosage of Sudafed cures sniffling almost instantly.

Comments: 1 marks we make when we try to get a pen to work again - a lifetime of them!.

Tuesday, November 16th, 2004